Well, this is awkward. I remember feeling discouraged from sharing my 3rd and final night of Ayahuasca, but now, almost 2 years later, I can't recall why. Luckily, I still have my journals from that Peruvian trip. So, I'll share them now, for completion.
Our last full day in the jungle was hotter than the previous ones and was a mixed experience for me. The high point was a chance to swim in a magnificent lake, where the tannins in the water made it a dark mirror for the sky. I had longed to do this ever since arriving and it was just as magnificent as I had hoped. But after returning to the lodge, I wanted to rest, but couldn't because my roommate was collecting money, it was unclear what for -- I thought everything was paid for. Having bought some local crafts during our outing, I didn't have much left, so after giving her a few small bills, I had only coins for tomorrow's trip back to Lima -- not good. Then, flustered, I missed out on the daily guided meditation and sharing with Don Guido. I was tired, peeved and a bit homesick toward early evening. All of this, despite the wonderful experience the previous night.
As the ceremony time drew near, I was anxious that the final one would be rough. Perhaps because of the heat, there were lots of insects in the ceremony space that night, unlike before. I had Deet on, so no mosquitoes bit me, but I found out after I got back to the cabin that I was bitten through my pants and socks. In the low light, they had a feast -- everyone got bit. People thought it was black ants.
However, my anxiety about the aya was unfounded because Don Guido sensed my state -- he only gave me a teaspoon's worth of the brew -- it was the most gentle trip I've ever had and I was very grateful. My jaw didn't even hang. It was a pleasant buzz, without a lot of recognizable images.
However, the first notable ones were many sets of eyes zooming at me. Blue human eyes, cats', eagles' and more. It was fascinating, but not frightening. I accepted them without understanding the meaning. Later I got a cartoon lamb with a black face and ears, and white fleece. This meek creature peeked around a large, black sphere. Puzzling, but ok. The last image was startling and amusing -- a tree of vaginas. Instead of fruit, there were vaginas dangling from the branches. I almost laughed.
I had one diarrhea purge and was a little queazy and gassy, that was all. The experience was sweet and gentle. Lovely! My trip faded early, then, filled with admiration and awe for Don Guido's craft, I waited. I even dozed off. Except for the insects, it was nice for everyone, without any loud disturbances or dramas.
The next morning at breakfast, I discovered that the eyes were different aspects of myself looking at me. I saw myself and was seen. After a chat with Linda Fitch, it was clear that the vagina tree wasn't just sexuality, but the Divine Feminine, abundance and fertility/creativity, aligned with Mother Earth. Just beautiful! I had no clue about the lamb and orb, but now think it has something to do with being mild and soft, while creating and presenting my big project (my book.) Present it gently! Timely advice now, as I'm getting ready to submit it.
Our last full day in the jungle was hotter than the previous ones and was a mixed experience for me. The high point was a chance to swim in a magnificent lake, where the tannins in the water made it a dark mirror for the sky. I had longed to do this ever since arriving and it was just as magnificent as I had hoped. But after returning to the lodge, I wanted to rest, but couldn't because my roommate was collecting money, it was unclear what for -- I thought everything was paid for. Having bought some local crafts during our outing, I didn't have much left, so after giving her a few small bills, I had only coins for tomorrow's trip back to Lima -- not good. Then, flustered, I missed out on the daily guided meditation and sharing with Don Guido. I was tired, peeved and a bit homesick toward early evening. All of this, despite the wonderful experience the previous night.
As the ceremony time drew near, I was anxious that the final one would be rough. Perhaps because of the heat, there were lots of insects in the ceremony space that night, unlike before. I had Deet on, so no mosquitoes bit me, but I found out after I got back to the cabin that I was bitten through my pants and socks. In the low light, they had a feast -- everyone got bit. People thought it was black ants.
However, my anxiety about the aya was unfounded because Don Guido sensed my state -- he only gave me a teaspoon's worth of the brew -- it was the most gentle trip I've ever had and I was very grateful. My jaw didn't even hang. It was a pleasant buzz, without a lot of recognizable images.
However, the first notable ones were many sets of eyes zooming at me. Blue human eyes, cats', eagles' and more. It was fascinating, but not frightening. I accepted them without understanding the meaning. Later I got a cartoon lamb with a black face and ears, and white fleece. This meek creature peeked around a large, black sphere. Puzzling, but ok. The last image was startling and amusing -- a tree of vaginas. Instead of fruit, there were vaginas dangling from the branches. I almost laughed.
I had one diarrhea purge and was a little queazy and gassy, that was all. The experience was sweet and gentle. Lovely! My trip faded early, then, filled with admiration and awe for Don Guido's craft, I waited. I even dozed off. Except for the insects, it was nice for everyone, without any loud disturbances or dramas.
The next morning at breakfast, I discovered that the eyes were different aspects of myself looking at me. I saw myself and was seen. After a chat with Linda Fitch, it was clear that the vagina tree wasn't just sexuality, but the Divine Feminine, abundance and fertility/creativity, aligned with Mother Earth. Just beautiful! I had no clue about the lamb and orb, but now think it has something to do with being mild and soft, while creating and presenting my big project (my book.) Present it gently! Timely advice now, as I'm getting ready to submit it.
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